"Polaroid & Instax enthusiasts//Seventeen//I like traveling "
Saturday, 15 August 2015 • 1:56 am • 0 comments
It's 1.42 am and I begin to blogging again as I could not take this pain any longer. I dont know is it just me or is it really something bad. I feel like I've been hurt many times, bad things keep happening and to be honest I'm hurt. It doesnt feel the same anymore. His voice doesnt keep me calm anymore. I begin to fall apart. The more I try to stay close, the more miserable i felt. Been crying all night long thinking what could have done wrong. You know that feeling when you try to do better but at the end there must be something keep you off guard.
Dear someone, if you're able to read this. I'm hurt, so bad. I cried and when I stop, i ended up crying again. I guess it really hurts me this time. I know you try your best. I know. I guess it just me. Right.
Mungkin aku yang terlalu ikut perasaan, sebab dah sayang mungkin. Sebab tu dulu aku kata aku takut nak sayang lebih lebih. Kau tengoklah apa jadi, aku tak boleh berhenti menangis, kau tahu. Aku nak contact kau pun aku menangis. Aku takut aku sakit lagi. Sebab dulu masa aku perlukan kau, kau ada. Sekarang aku perlukan kau, macam entah.. Kadang aku selalu cakap kat diri sendiri, jangan call lagi kalau dah tahu dia tak angkat. But then, aku call lagi. Lepastu sakit sensorang.
Aku harap mata aku tak bengkak esok. Hati bengkak takpe, jangan mata. Hati bengkak takde siapa tahu.