It's has been 24 hours since you left me. How could you just do that? I still cannot believe it until now. I can't do anything but keep thinking about it. I already know that the time you leave me is a painful moment. It's hurt so badly. I'm sorry for the mistake that I've done. Sorry again and again. Your text message? I still keep it. Why? Because i didn't have any courage to even look at it. It's painful to see those text message. The way you just say goodbye to me :'(

For the rest 7 months that we've been together. When we spend our quality time. We share everything. Sadness, happiness, joke. I bet it's gonna be a tough day. And when night comes. I just want the night to be ended quickly. Because i can't sleep and keep thinking about it. Over and over. You said to me. Don't tell anybody about our relationship right? That we are already broke up. But why? Come on. We already broke up. Sigh. The way you treat me that night, It's cruel. 

At first, I didn't cry at all. But as soon as the word 'aku kau keluar' It's startled me. Suddenly my tears falling down. It'll be the last tears right? No, I guess not the last. But it just a minute. After that. I watch some television shows so I won't cry again. Ya, I just can't believe that we have nothing to do anymore. Nothing. When the school starts, It'll be a long journey to facing you in class everyday. And now I believe that when we broke up all the sucks or annoying word came out. It's more painful to hear those word from you. The one that I ever loved.

At that time I just don't want to pick a fight with you anymore. I've to accept it. But why don't you be nice to me? We may not be a couple anymore. But we're still friend! Ya, it'll be an awkward moment though. You? Me? Having a conversation? It'll be hard. Trust me. Not even a piece of word will come out of my mouth. Oh god. I don't know if I could stands with that. Hearing others saying about us. I hate to hear and accept the fact that we ever been together. Sadness :'(

I guess if all my girlfriend know about it. It will be a disaster. They will asking me why. Seriously? Don't you care about my feeling? Hearing that I shouldn't let him go at the first place. I'm just sick and tired about this kind of stuff! Ya, I know it's a normal thing right? But I don't know it'll will hurt me so much. Next year I will be turning fifteen and taking PMR examination. I guess it's a good decision to just broke up with you. Of course there a little fear in my heart. Can I do it? Yes, I can.

Forgetting someone that you ever loved. Is it easy? I just don't know. How can you forget someone that you meet everyday? every week? A year? And maybe till I've finished my studies. I can handle it right? I maybe cry a lot but I'm sure I will forget about you. You? Just my classmate and friend. Not more than that. When I had a walk with my family. I always  imagined that you appear in front of my sight. How it could be? Now I'm afraid of you. Bad guy! I hate you!

Another day will pass by. But i still can't believe it...

Sincerely from the bottom of my heart, deep inside it.